Conflicted in Use of Source

• Posted by Soul Fire February 17 - Filed in BE AWARE - 66 views

  We all talk about keeping what resonates with us and discarding the rest. But if truth is truth, how could truth resonate with one person and not another? Here is my confliction story...

   

  I'm conflicted, I"m sure my ego is playing with me and I need some perspective. A post here was saying that "such and such happened in the past, and such and such exists now because of it." but there was no physical proof that "such and such happened, and that such and such exists now." When I said, prove it to me, I was told that proof was not necessary because the truth could be ascertained solely by asking ones soul if this is truth. Now I'm a scientist by nature and if you want to prove to me GMO foods are bad for me, I want evidence. Or if you say microwaved water will kill plants I want to see the experiment as it played out. Or I want to do my own experiment to see if it is the "truth". When I was an atheist I needed proof "god" existed, and when I met god it was all the proof I needed. But I never expect people to believe I met god, because I had no proof except my own knowing of it. Also my experience with trusting my soul connection has been a confusing one. When I first awoke I tested this "innate" knowledge to make sure I wasn't just fooling myself with my ego. So I didn't ask a spiritual question I asked a math question. I was given and answer and I looked it up. The math was incorrect. And I asked, how can I trust you, if you can't answer a simple math equation, I was told "I am your compass for spiritual understanding so you can learn love, I am not a calculator, if you want to know what a x b = get a calculator." So I have always used my source as my guide for spiritual understanding and not physical understanding. Because that is what I thought the lesson was for, how to use my source understanding with discretion. When I asked Source about my current conundrum I got "You believe in needing physical evidence as proof so you can believe something, this person believes no proof is necessary when you are awakened to source. You can't change how that person thinks, but you can look at how you think." So there I'm thinking, what kind of answer is that? You still didn't answer whether I should have physical proof, or if you are all the proof I need." It was left up to me to decide. And honestly I just don't know what to think. After my calculator incident I have never relied on my spirit to tell me the truth about the physical world, only the world of spiritual polarity. So has this person come into my life in order for me to question that? To question how I perceived and "know" reality. And how do I trust spirit to be my calculator?

   

  When I was fully engulfed by spirit I "knew" everything with perfect certainty. And I believe that since we are always connected with this, we should be able to access that AllKnowledge. But since my calculator experience, I never "tested" that AllKnowledge connection because I always thought the purpose of that lesson was to figure this material world out for myself. So now I'm really confused. 

   

  And let us say, this is the gateway challenge for me to learn to access that AllKnowledge so I can be completely confident in all I look upon as truth or hoax, how do I begin to trust it, when my spirit failed the math test?